As usual, she is showing us how she really is more alike than different. I remember all of the stress I went through when Kennedy was born. All of the fears I had. I was so afraid I didn't have what it took to be the mom of a child with special needs. How ironic is it that I'm having a harder time parenting my "typical" child and Kennedy is proving to be the "easy one." The fact that I've sat in the pediatrician's office saying, "I don't know what to do with him." Yet, I don't think I've said that about Kennedy since that first day we got her diagnosis. Who would have known?
It's hard to believe the big changes we are facing over the next few months. Kennedy will be three before long, which ages her out of the state's Early Intervention program. It also makes her eligible for pre-school through the county school system. The idea of sending my child off to school full time at the age of three absolutely terrifies me. We have always felt that we would homeschool our children, but the closer we get, I wonder if it's the right decision. Not because she has Down syndrome, but because of her personality. And partly because she is so darn stubborn when it comes to working with me. She is much more willing to work with her therapists than me, no I wonder if she would do better in a school environment. But the idea of leaving my baby girl in someone else's care terrifies me. I'm finally considering the part time program which would have her in school four days a week, three hours a day. Some people think I'm crazy and that I should jump at the chance for a "break" but I'm still not convinced that this is the best avenue for our family. Part of it is because I feel like I know her so well, and that I should be the best person to teach her. And part of me is just plain terrified. I keep trying to convince myself that I can't let my fears hold her back from doing someone that she will enjoy and that will help her succeed.
With that, I'll leave you with some photos of Kennedy's latest beach adventure.